this song was actually written in march before a project was an idea. this was the first beat in the drive jed sent me called "AA," and i had an idea in mind and already knew what to say, and just needed a beat to match. i really enjoy the hook, i think the verse is pretty good. but i wanted to take the most accessible sounding song on the entire project and make it weird as hell, so i took jed's beat, and started manipulating it because there was so much empty space between the final hook and the end of the instrumental, and i didn't want to leave empty space where i could be doing something. i flipped and chopped up really uneven portions of the beat, basically doing whatever i wanted to do, and did a flip on lyrics from frank ocean's nikes, which is from jed's favorite album of all-time. i don't produce at all, i don't know how to, but i do have co-production on this song. fábian originally had a feature on here, but we moved it to trauma because it fit that tempo better and really the overall theme and sentiment of that song. this was the last song i recorded for the project, and i hated recording this song specifically lol
lyrics
i said, therapy ain't free so i pay more for a zip
i guess the verse ain't reaching locals, so the chorus should hit
i know my mind a mess, i'm bored, and steady smorgasing shit
i'm at a loss for words, still manage to record in a minute
therapy ain't free so i pay more for a zip
i guess the verse ain't reaching locals, so the chorus should hit
i know my mind a mess, i'm bored, and steady smorgasing shit
i'm at a loss for words, still manage to record in a minute
i'm finding solace in the hardest of places
but heard through the grapevine that it's fine and i know i can take it
my bad attitude sits on my shoulder, as i'm older, i've felt vacant
but lets face it, i've been here before, of course i know i'll make it
the journey, to be expected, is to not be accepted
i've felt anxious, crestfallen and restless up in my bed, shit
i bottle things up too much, without saying much
then crack another bottle just to coddle and then chuck it up for later after twisting blunts
i'm crossfaded off a paper trail of hundreds i've been saving up
only to blow it all in a sec up off a case of bud
after i had claimed to stunt, i really hope i make it up
an eighth of shrooms consumed confine me to my room, confused
really if you're in my place too, you'd ask me what to do
i'm out of tune, and out of town too much to feel out of the loop
i'm shouting, hoping that you can hear me and all my breaking news
i don't know what to do
i don't know what to do
but, fuck it, because
therapy ain't free so i pay more for a zip
i guess the verse ain't reaching locals, so the chorus should hit
i know my mind a mess, i'm bored, and steady smorgasing shit
i'm at a loss for words, still manage to record in a minute
therapy ain't free so i pay more for a zip
i guess the verse ain't reaching locals, so the chorus should hit
i know my mind a mess, i'm bored, and steady smorgasing shit
i'm at a loss for words, still manage to record in a minute
i said i got vices
for me to feel some
and if they fight you
then don't end up like me
i said i got vices
for me to feel some
and if they fight you
then don't end up like me
credits
from drowning cycle,
released June 21, 2020
writer, composer - Ian Stevens
composer - Jed Goodwill
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